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| New Year's Eve December 31, 2011 |
It's December 27 and we've been creeping closer and closer to the New Year. I survived the December 21 apocalypse and the Christmas holiday without a scratch. This year has been a wild ride. Many changes have happened in my life and I feel like 2013 will be a continuation of this trend. It has been a year of spiritual growth. I went through many events that could have thrown me off kilter, but I feel like I have become more grounded, more "calm and centered" as my friend Keysa would say. The overarching theme for the year of 2012 was my devouring of books, blogs, and webinars by life coaches, spiritual leaders, philosphers, wayfinders, team members and healers such as Martha Beck, Kyle Cease, Regena Thomashaur, Kitty Cavalier, Byron Katie, Oprah, Tama Kieves, Lissa Rankin, Amy Ahlers, Lisa Nichols, Deepak Chopra, Marianne Williamson and Iyanla Vanzant. I feel like 2012 was a year of focusing on my life's purpose and my calling in life. I have become more clear on who I am and how I want to be in this life. It has been a year of recognizing that it's not what happens to us, in fact our circumstances have nothing at all to do with the kind of life we have. Instead it is our reaction, what story we choose to believe about it, how we react and how we
choose to feel about the event.
2012 in review:
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| My Sister and I Smize |
My 2012 began with a bang because my little sister, Anna, still lived with me. She brought some energy and change into my life when she moved in with my husband and I in November 2011 and her energy and spirit were drove me full speed ahead into the new year. We hiked and danced and fruit ninja ed and ate and dressed up and took the doggies for long walks. Nathan even started the new year off with a couple of hikes with us. January I also joined Crossfit Kailua and the amount of strength that I have gained over the year with the encouragement of my workout buddy Keysa (and Anna before she left), and my coaches is quite impressive, since I only workout twice a week with supplemental weekend hikes. I started a paleo challenge in March and actually won 2nd place. And Keysa won 3rd! Awesome.
But in the spring time Anna moved away. Sadness! Seriously, very sad. She moved on to South Carolina, but I'm hoping she hates it so much she'll move back here for a while. We'll see.
At some point I began to watch reruns of Oprah's Lifeclass. Those are life changers, holy moly! Seriously, I began to have some major moments of clarity and some momentous gaining of perspective over my life. It sent me scrambling for books and blogs by her guests starting with Iyanla Vanzant, who I love. The perspective I gained from these classes I think helped me through starting at a new location at my job. It was a tough transition, the culture of the school is very different than what I was used to. It was difficult to manage the micromanagement, but I was able to stay calm without dissolving into tears. I was able to step back and think before I agreed (or disagreed) to any commands given.
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| Hiking with my Best Friends |
In October I took a life changing class called "Finding Your Calling" with Lissa Rankin, Martha Beck and Amy Ahlers. It was the first time I have ever paid for a class by a "life coach." It was amazing, intense and life-altering. Did I mention it changed my life? I became a part of an inspiring group of healers and entrepreneurs that I continue to keep in touch with. A bazillion brilliant statements were made during these classes and I keep learning more and more as I go back and listen to the recordings. The main thing is that I began to believe in myself. Not the type of excitement that amps you up while the infomercial is playing but fades when it's over. They kind that you feel in your bones, your gut, your heart. I began to see and hear and feel what I want out of life. Not the superficial things. What I really want. How I want to feel day to day, what kind of changes I want to make in the world. What I want my legacy to be, what I want written on my tombstone. The real stuff. How I want you to remember me. Ooh, it gives me chills all over again just thinking about it.
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| Sullivan Christmas Group Hug |
So from this class I've had some real perspective shifts. When I got pulled over speeding on H3, I totally got to enjoy the whole thing. I got to look the police officer in the eye and thank him for doing his job. I got to live through bouncing multiple checks all at the same time due to a mistake I made, and take a deep breath and not freak out. And it was okay. I paid some late fees. The world did not end. My dog got pancreatitis and lay next to me shivering, wanting me to fix his pain. I didn't freak out. I held him, I took him to the vet. I got him his meds. And I got to stay calm and help him instead of being anxious and scared and angry. And yesterday, when my dear friend's cat died I didn't run away. I was freaked out, but I stayed with him while he took his last breath and talked to my friend and brushed him with his favorite brush. It was the saddest thing I've ever witnessed, he was a great cat, an old cat and he helped my friend through some really hard times. But I didn't run away and hide, and I didn't freak out. I stayed with him and tried to stay calm so it would be easier on him.
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| Warrior Dash, 2012 |
During the "Finding Your Calling" class Martha Beck walked us through a guided meditation that has helped me immensely in times like this. You start out standing in a hurricane, watching the wind and waves and destruction happen. Then you become just a speck of consciousness, a being that can watch, hear and sense the destruction but not be affected by it. The wind and waves and rain go through you and you are untouched. Then you drop down a rope into the ocean and you follow it down into the churning waves, and deeper, deeper and the water gets calmer and quieter as you go down. All the way to the bottom where it is silent, so quiet that whales communicate to each other across miles at this depth. And here you anchor your rope. Your consciousness is still above water in the intense energy that is a hurricane and at the same time you are anchored in this peaceful, calm depth of ocean. At any time you can grab onto this rope to ground yourself, to remind yourself that there is a part of you that is always calm and peaceful. I mentally grab onto this rope often. It might be the lesson of the year for me.
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| Swamp Romp, 2012 |
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| Parkour! |
Finally, this morning I read a chapter of
The Fire Starter Sessions, by Danielle Laporte. Session 5, Facing Forward. It talks about being "stuck in the past and chronically complaining about our present." It struck a chord for me as I look towards the New Year's celebration in a couple of days and I consider what my resolution should be. And I think Facing Forward might be my theme for 2013. To stop getting stuck in the past. To tell my stories from a place of love, learning and humor. And to spend most of my time facing the present, what I do have and how I can build on that. What my current obstacles are and how I can get past them. How I can live every day of this year striving to feel Powerful, Energized, Connected, Clear and Free, my "Core Desired Feelings" (another Danielle Laporte concept). Every day looking forward.
In the comments, please leave your thoughts on what your resolutions might be this coming year as well as adding any names of Spiritual and Life Leaders I may have missed in the above paragraphs.
